Tuesday, January 26, 2010
The Uphill Battle- January 26
Up at 4:45, work by 6:00.
Out by 3:00
Academia or Studio work by 3:30
Karate at 6:00 or 7:30
Oh yeah, supper in there somewhere
Bed by 9:30 ( right)
Oh, you mean I have to take out the trash, too?
I have conceded...my house will now be a workshop for the next 2 plus years.
Friday nights, maybe for friends
Ok enough of that!
Right about the end of the AIB residency, I began having night visions... ideas.. and I am still getting them.
The goal is to draw them out.. get them out... make them happen.
I have been informed that this is the semester to PLAY! and I am trying not to get in my own way so that I may do just that.
:PROBLEM # 1 STILL NO ARTIST MENTOR.
as an aside:
Regarding my original goal...I have been doing some reading about how even in death, we speak, we make a mark.
Perhaps the grief and sorrow are caused, not by the death of my husband, as I am truly happy for him. He does not hurt any longer.
Perhaps my sorrow stems now from the loss of my identity, my place.
In death as in life, he has made his mark..cemented in time if you will. Through his marks he will go on.
I am left to wander
As an artist, I wish to make my mark also, but until I find my identity, how could I possibly make a mark.